Mark just got off the phone with Delta. It's official we are bringing Kloe home. We fly out on Jan 3 and return on the 5th. We purposely decided in consult with the Ranch to wait until after Christmas. Holidays are unstructured, chaotic times for most families, which is not a good environment to bring Kloe home to. She will get home the week before her 10th birthday though. She gets home on the 5th and will start school on the 6th. May sound crazy, but structure and routine are going to be ESSENTIAL. Thankfully I have about 10 days before going back to school myself to try to help her get settled in.
Our sweet friend Mariah has been living with us and going to college and Kloe will share a room with her. Kloe loves Mariah, so I think it will be a good thing. Kloe manages her behaviors better when others are around, so hopefully having Mariah here will help her establish some good behavior patterns and self-control within the home.
We are hoping and praying for the best transition possible. Would you join us?
**Pray for Nikki and Nathan. They were profoundly affected by Kloe's behaviors, and as a mama, that is so hard to see. I can handle the stress, but I hated that they had to "handle" it too, and I desperately want to maintain the peace we have had in our home these last months.
**Pray for Kloe that she can transfer the new healthy habits and ways of behaving to family life.
**Pray for Mark and I to be patient and wise in our parenting.
**Pray for us all to be full of grace for each other.
**Pray for people to come along side and support us. Specifically for one family that understands trauma and attachment that can provide respite care if it should be necessary. (Hoping it won't be!)
"Those who cling to worthless idols forsake faithful love... "
Kids from hard places often have lots of "worthless idols", things that they have a death grip on because they believe their very survival depends on it... it could be control, food, self-reliance, food, shame, food, negative beliefs and feelings, food. Yeah, food is a pretty obvious one around here...
And they prefer all of those idols to faithful love because... well... love is just plain dangerous.... why risk it?
But then I realized, my troubled child isn't the only one clinging to things that take her in the wrong direction, further away from God's best. It's me too. It's me saying to God, I don't want to
go to Ninevah show love and compassion to this child who calls me stupid and spits on me and throws things at my head. It's too hard, it's not worth it, there's no payback.
It's me! I'm no different than Jonah, or my precious daughter, clinging to my stubborn way, digging in my heels and saying I won't go. My idol. And suddenly I get it. Letting go of idols is hard and uncomfortable, and sacrificial. And you don't just let go once... it's a continual letting go. And I realize... if letting go is this hard for me, how much more difficult for a child who trusts NO ONE. Not a single human being and not God.
Jonah, didn't stop after the first part of that verse. He went on to say...
but as for me, I will sacrifice to You with a voice of thanksgiving. I will fulfill what I have vowed. Salvation is from the Lord!" Jonah 2:8-9
And so I, like Jonah, set my stubborn heart to do what I vowed, what God commands, because obedience brings blessing. I will do it Lord. I will obey... I will love, and leave the payback to You.
"But I will sing of Your strength and will joyfully proclaim Your faithful love in the morning. For You have been a stronghold for me, a refuge in my day of trouble." Psalm 59:16